Homeschool

Hi Nicholeen, I wrote a few weeks ago about homeschooling burnout. Thank you for your advice. We dropped competitive swim, homeschool groups, etc. to take a break from all the activities. The other reason why I contemplated enrolling him in a Christian school is that I’m struggling with my marriage. I still have ptsd of my husband’s affair that went on in 2012-2017. We’ve worked through it but I’m still not well, deep inside. I contacted a marriage therapist to work out the issues and as I filled out the mental health form, I realized that I’m actually very depressed inside. I’ve learnt to function as a mother, a host mom to two high school students from China, an airbnb owner and mask it so well that even I wasn’t aware I was depressed :). But my 8 year old son has been hugging me, saying ‘why don’t you smile much at home? I want you to be a happy mom.’ My question is, how does a depressed mom continue to homeschool? What are some coping mechanisms you’d suggest? Is it better for my son to see other teachers in a Christian school who are more cheerful, positive and affirming? Homeschooling is emotional for me because whenever I see my son exhibiting the same behaviors or weakness that my husband has/had, I get very upset. I keep thinking if my husband was more of a reader/intellect, my son would do better in his studies and be disciplined. How did you continue to keep everything going when you went through a hard time? Everything feels so hard for me right now. I so appreciate your thoughts and advice on this.